Monthly Archives: September 2014

#BlogElul 20: Judge

              God as judge the defining focus of the Yamim Noraim the reason to move toward teshuvah to be assured a place in the Book of Life for another year. To be judged unworthy … Continue reading

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#BlogElul 19: Ask

              I have found that asking a question with intentionality with curiosity requires vulnerability.   Not a social nicety: How are you? How’s your day? What’s new? What’s for dinner?   A caring, open … Continue reading

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#BlogElul 18: Pray

Prayer, for me, is a gift. A gift of time to commune with God whatever/whoever that means the God inside, nature, a higher power, a mystical being. Prayer, for me, is about ritual. Over the years, I have created my … Continue reading

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#BlogElul 17: Awaken

              Last night was rife with disturbed/disturbing sleep nightmares attacking relentlessly/mercilessly old trauma flying in flashing/slashing understanding slipping away eluding/excluding. This morning I awoke to an awakening realizing that sometimes the unfathomable is simply … Continue reading

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#BlogElul 16: Understand

              Sometimes understanding comes readily sometimes it takes work sometimes there is no fathoming. Faith cannot comfort prayers do not heal God is nowhere to be found. Emptiness fills the soul. Men pilot airplanes … Continue reading

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#BlogElul 15: Learn

            I have learned much in my time blessed with intellectual curiosity an inherent thirst for knowledge and an overactive brain. I have learned how to grieve for my father and mother for what might … Continue reading

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#BlogElul 14: Remember

My memories have often burned with the heat of shame: being laughing at when I dropped my ice cream cone letting my family down by not being like them letting myself down by staying in bed and not greeting the … Continue reading

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#BlogElul 13: Forgive

Elul is a holy time for reflection and repentance introspection and intensity asking/granting/receiving forgiveness. We promise to do better to change our ways and return having in the backs of our minds the striking of terror of the Unetanah Tokef. … Continue reading

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#BlogElul 12: Trust

            I am not a trusting soul trust was ripped from me when I was three by a parent who should have known better. I tried to win it back invited, cajoled, begged, pleaded in … Continue reading

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#BlogElul11: Count

            Each night, I count my blessings shortly before I count sheep because sheep come before sleep which comes before morning when I once again count my blessings.   I’ve decided to participate for the … Continue reading

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