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#blogElul 2017 – Day 11: Trust

I like to think of myself as trustworthy, a stalwart ally, omnipresent in times of need. Truth be told too many times my actions have eroded others’ trust in me. How can one have faith in a sibling, a parent, … Continue reading

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#blogElul 2017 – Day 10: Forgive

If asking for forgiveness during these holy days leading to even holier days is a requirement is there meaning in the act? Isn’t it more honorable to apologize close to the event where one has hurt someone instead of racking … Continue reading

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#blogElul 2017 – Elul 9: See

There is seeing and there is seeing. Glancing versus observing. Scanning versus scrutinizing. In moments of anger/angst I have avoided, evaded eluded, deluded but rarely, if ever, denuded. Viewing rage’s effects only on self is an empty exercise creating a … Continue reading

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#blogElul 2017 – Day 8: Hear

                  It starts in my ears the slow rush of waves gentle and softly soothing lulling me into pseudo-safety. Sound begins to pound expropriating attention crashing into consciousness alerting the amygdala. The … Continue reading

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#blogElul 2017 – Day 7: Understand

I understand. I get it. I do.  Rage is my default emotion. A comfortable landing zone. An old friend. Recognizing isn’t enough. I can spot my sidekick in a nanosecond. Acceptance isn’t enough. My friend and I have shaken hands … Continue reading

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#blogElul 2017 – Day 5: Accept

I would accept, except rejection is easier than reflection, deflection simpler than direction… I am the architect of neglect, though it’s dejecting that I’m electing to be disrespecting… I expect someday to subject my unchecked defects to introspection, an injection … Continue reading

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#blogElul 2017 – Day 4: Choose

                    When I was a kid, the grand issues of the day were easily resolved: Stick ball or ringolevio? One, two, three…shoot! Who’s up first – my team or yours? One … Continue reading

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