Tag Archives: re-living trauma

Body and Soul

I have spent my life hating my body. Feeding it to stop the pain. Stuffing my mouth…to forget my father stuffing it. Eating won’t make it go away. Ignoring won’t make it go away. Numbing can’t make it go away. … Continue reading

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9/11…The Five Stages of Grief

September 11, 2001 September 11th 9/11 Synonymous with grief, pain the end of an age of innocence invincibility invulnerability. Terrorism evoking terror as it was intended to do. Ten years later, we still grieve. Still, we grieve. Thus it was … Continue reading

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The Ghost of Birthdays Past

My mother just had a birthday. 87. She turned 87. I am grateful; I am thrilled to be celebrating dancing singing rejoicing with her. My family descended, en masse. Hovering, wondering: How much longer? Will this be the last one? … Continue reading

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No Body.

No Body. Not today. None that I want, anyway. No connection No stash of self-love No self-compassion. Just fear Blind fear The kind that makes you quake. Fears are feelings. Feelings aren’t facts. That’s what they say. Anyway… I don’t … Continue reading

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Trauma Triggering Trauma?

What is it about being a trauma survivor? Is it just me, or does anyone else get re-triggered by traumatic events in our world?  Can I never have a “normal” experience, like others do, when people get shot in random … Continue reading

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